What satisfies you?

First post of 2011... I wonder whether anyone reads this blog anymore. Probably not.
But oh well...

Nearing the end of the 2nd year of pharmacy - time flies. Is the second year tougher than the first? Definitely... but that's to be expected I guess. Something that I learned from JC. Life is Hard.

Anyways a random thought which i needed to pen down... which is why I'm blogging for the first time in ages:

What satisfies you? These three words carry deeper implications then I dare elaborate. They relate to not only to shallows of feelings but actually and more importantly to the depths of purpose - or in other words 'what really matters?'
If one is satisfied by good grades in life... does is stem from being academically good or does is stem from love/passion of the subject?
If one is satisfied by friendships... is it etched from the void of loneliness or does it spring forth from genuine love for one another?
The means are pretty much the same... but the motivations are chasms apart.

I know actions and deeds are important, no doubt... but really is it just about actions and deeds; or is the heart condition of greater significance? To this I can give no answer... for now.

But back to the question of what satisfies me? I shall narrow it down to the context of boardgames... Indeed I find them incredibly fun to play, it could have stemmed of from my gaming days of primary/secondary/jc/army... but something I've come to realise was that in as much I was enjoying my time playing with friends, I was intrigued by the mechanics... the art... the components... and halfway somehow... I lost the main point... which was enjoying playing boardgames with friends... but instead began to enjoying boardgames itself - dare I say idolising it.

So do I get satisfied by games? probably... grades? probably... friendships? probably... etc.
But if I ask whether they truly satisfy... putting it bluntly - Nope.

So what then truly satisfies? I can only say God.
A relationship like no other,
a pursuit like no other,
a life like no other.

Do I feel that all the time? sadly no... but those special moments which resonate with your soul, your being... there is nothing like it, for me at least... those really special moments where I can say perhaps for moments/seasons at a time. That I'm truly satisfied... and most of the time you don't realise it unless retrospectively where you find out that during those moments... satisfaction ironically is of no worth.